Been generously sifting through old heaps of books all week. Books that cranked my creative generator in the formative years...I came across my first ever book of prose/poetry by Kahil Gibran and can still remember when I bought it in High school, at Willow Tree second hand books near the north side of Town. Willow Tree heavily reeked of moldy-cardboard and thick, dusty old paperbacks with jaundice pages. Beautiful Rachael, the girl with the china-doll ashen face, velvet choker and thick black hair that hung over her bosom like renaissance drapes in the Louvre guided me to the poetry section. She was studying English at Southern Illinois University but had just dropped out for reasons she chose not to share.
Rachael wore thick burgundy fairy-tale dresses and bracelets. She was always sitting in perrfect erect posture reading behind the counter; her glazed marble-eyes stared into her current hymnal like she was gazing through stain glass in a eurpoean cathedral at dawn. I used to flirt with her. I had already been to Europe twice and was myself a "Poe-it" my unfledged poems, a branch stemming from the thick trunk of ego that someday, (thankfully) would be gradually axed into pools of saw dust.
She told me she had dabbled in poems herself, that she possesed a poets heart, only her professors in college had told her the her original poetical-tithes weren't very good. She played George Winston, enya and early "Under the Pink" Tori Amos in the store. There was a cat she called Dorien Gray that "lived" underneath the sky-line of books. There was a stash of complimentary Herbal-organic tea that I stole a box of once and snorted and then periscopically floated around in a helium cotton-cloud lavender haze for days.
And there was A TREASURY OF Kahil Gibran, a book of short stories which one-ups The Prophet. As the introduction made note, oddly enough, Gibran's short stories were often more mystical than his poems.
I remember the night I first read Gibran's short story THE TEMPEST. I remember how each page smelled like an old leaf salvaged from previous autumns. I remembered the wayfarer getting purposefully abandoned in the Tempest, so he could take refuge with a reclusive Hermit and hopefully glean a shred of mystical insight.
I remember how my bed was made with the quilt mother had stitched for me. How I had Ralphael and Renoir and Durer paintings tacked to my wall. How I had snap-shots of Big Ben and the Eiffle tower and a closet full of the old suits my cool Italian Granpa Frank used to wear-- fashionable 1940's jackets I'd wear to high school amd smile when I was mistaken by faculty as a Student Teacher.
I remember how I used to tape the Texaco Opera broadcasts. How I planned on proposing to Cecelia Bartoli on her next American tour. How I would attentively listen to The Writers Almanac every afternoon, at Three fifty-four, after cranking out an article for the school newspaper. I collected weekly editions of the BOOK sections shed from the chicago tribune. Everytime I read an article and came across a word I didn't know, I would circle the word and punch the definition into a word calculator my father had given me.
I misused words all the time in highschool. My highschool was more adept in churning out gangster disciples than it was Rhodes scholars but a few of the older teachers seemed to be amused by my forged poetic parlance. I told fiery red-haired Karen Strickler that it was very "pensive" of her to think about me over the holidays because I had read that the word "pensive" meant "thoughtful". I wrote a detailed paper about teen-angst and depression in a prozac marketed economy where I discussed the on-going perils of teen accentuation (A word I derived from 'accentuate' to emphasize 'stress' as on a syllable, not on a person). I remember very vivdly having my senior high school teacher lacerate my paper on "The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock" out loud chiding my excessive brooklynite-big poofy haired voacbulary so that my peers, a scattered handfall of sloped-scholars in a high school that boasted the Highest teenage Pregnancy rate in the nation my senior year, chuckled and derided me for weeks after. When I finally broke up with Jana Solomon (for good this time, I swear) she adamantly informed me that I misused the word 'facade' all the time in our relationship, and she knew words because her Uncle had reviewed Rick Moody's Purple America for the Tribune.
But words. Buckeling the perfect word in the perfectly constructed sentence; strapping it into the confines of the paragraph as delicately one would strap a child into a car seat.
There's no greater time in a writers life than that moment when he first slips on wet sentences and becomes inundated with language. I remember ferrying my original copy of LEAVES OF GRASS in the side pocket of my retro brown jacket my Dad had leftover from '78. I remember the color of that autumn, when the world chipped open, when I was in love with a girl who was unavailable and the only way I could manifest my emotions was to sit on my ass, crack open my skull and pour whatever carbonated heart I owned on to the perimeter of the page, whipping my pen, left to right, casting inky-waves into an invisible placid-sand shore I would someday find myself washed up on.
7 comments:
the world needs to hear your voice D. it's so rich. i am crossing my fingers and saying my prayers and cheering along the way.
"do not go gentle" - isn't that a Dylan Thomas line? "do not go away gentle into the night, rage against the dying of the light" - or something like that? it's also used by a crazy anarchic band called Chumbawamba in one song (-;
nice prelude right before i go into "an evening with khalil gibran" in half an hour, given by his foremost scholar, my pro-fessor. i'll let you know what was on the menu. did you know this or is this another one of those crazy coincidences?
"Strange things are amidst at the circle blogg...."
On a non-mystical note, yes princess daniela, the blogg was original suppose to be about Dylan Thomas and alcohol...Thomas tried to write two (count 'em) two lines of verse a day. He just couldn't stop drinking and everyone sort've encouraged him to drink b/c the more drinks he had in him, the crazier he became.....historically writers have a hard time with alcohol. I was fishing through my old books this week and came across a bio on Kerouac...I used to idolize Kerouac to the point of plagerism....I thumbed through the book and found very little about his actual writing process and much more about his drinking habits. The last 20 years of his life (he died when he was 47) was just one big bar stool he was vomitting off of....I said the prayer for he Departed for Jack Kerouac and then threw a bullseye on my dartboard ( a rarity) so perhaps he was listening........As for Gibran, check out a short story called SATAN. It's about a man who finds a battered Satan on the side of the road. He has a chance to butcher Satan but Satan sort've splices out logic; i.e., if there would be no more Satan, there would be no more evil. If there would be no such thing as evil, there would be no such idea of what is good.... counter-polar stuff like that.... I personally think Juliet Thompson is 100 times better a writer and poet than Gibran, but I would be much more interested to hear the poetical assessment of the conspicuous 'pro-fessor'.
sweet Gibran coincidence. i almost had a crazy coincidence too: planning a unity Feast with another community, and the guy i am talking to has the same second name as the owners of the Townsend school. i checked if he was related to them, but supposedly it's a common name.... i was almost relieved, i mean, it would be too much. lol.
D, thanks for that story pointer. i just came across the following quote from 'Abdu'l-Baha:
"If there were no wrong, how could you recognize the right? If it were not for sin, how would you appreciate virtue? If evil deeds were unknown, how could you commend good actions? ... Briefly, the journey of the soul is necessary. The pathway of life is the road which leads to divine knowledge and attainment."
How so very exciting. Every damn minute of it (-; When you see Mara by the road, pull her out of the gutter! (-;
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